Over the last few posts, I’ve expressed my general lack of clarity when it came to what I want to do in my career. I ghought going into this program that I’d be going into the journalism stream but that might be up in the air with how I’m probably going to have to take an extra year. It would mean more time to think about where I want to start out from once I graduate, since as Nitin said, what I do now doesn’t bar me from whatever I decide in the future. However, I really don’t know any more about where I really see myself than I had in my first year. I like writing, though the forms where I get to be more casual or creative or both are my favourite. Unfortunately, that’s only a cliffnote in what goes on, which is fine since the foundations of communications and being aware of different forms of writing, as well as the industry and the theories, structures, and similarities that exist within it are important to know no matter where I go.
It’s just that I wonder if I’m even cut out for any of it. I’m not terrible at what I’ve done so far, but I’m not good either. That and the barriers that I tend to not have much of an issue getting past are still daunting when its in front of me. It’s easy to say not to worry about the money when going into a career until you’re there and not paid what you should because the company had too much faith in A.I. as another excuse to not pay writers properly.
I still do stand by wanting to just do what I want, though admittedly more out of a sense that it really doesn’t matter. We’ve learned enough over our education here so far about how flawed the systems in the many fields of media and communications are. There’s always a way to be exploited so its better to find a reason that’s easy to cling onto, a silver lining, to help making going forward easier.